You Can’t Have Flow Without Ebb

There is no up without down. In doesn’t work without the out. You won’t have flow without ebb. That seems simple, but it holds a golden key to happiness, your identity, truth, and life itself. Truly, the ebb and flow journey means everything and wants attention! I’ve been circling the sun for nearly 60 years, so  I’m entitled to the occasional epiphany.

I know it’s easy to blame circumstances for a bad mood or solidifying a believed identity. However, when I started asking myself questions, answers showed up that were difficult to face, but I went there anyway and was so happy I did! The truth is, I have ignored parts of myself that are unthinkably scary. It’s no doubt I created an ongoing fear of the ME showing up…of life itself.

A great example is how I tossed aside writing because typing or putting my thoughts to paper seemed attached to an identity that stayed in the “Ebb,” all the time. I now see why I’ve been stuck and crying constantly. The ongoing belief that I had to stay in ease and comfort to be safe was an elaborate lie. I also felt like my life had to be a certain way to be right. These overwhelming thoughts and beliefs overshadowed the ME I truly wanted to have a relationship with!

Another example is becoming sporadic with physical and occupational therapy exercises. These are meant to support me and help my body be stronger. Yes, they are hard some days! And, yes, that has scared me into reststance, and right back to the illusion of safety. But…I wouldn’t have seen my need or desire to be more able without the weakness or symptoms.

These fearful patterns quickly showed an imbalance that only stalled the true transformation I wanted and still want. The dream is to cultivate and live the identity of a well, energetic 50-something-year-old! Of course, the desire to be different than I am has been at the core of my situation as a sick woman. It’s taken me a lot of deep dives into that reality to see the self-sabotage pattern. Know that it’s an ongoing process to be present with yourself- The Ebb and Flow Journey!